Tuesday, December 13, 2011

and then i quit the internet for some days.

A of all:
I won!
Which is totally old news, since it's been hanging out over there on the progress ticker for weeks now.
*takes down progress ticker*
Anyway, yay! And a slight bit of "good riddance," too.

I say "good riddance" because, well, my brain got fried. I proved, once and for all, that I can write 50k words of a sh**ty first draft in 30 days. Good for me. I don't think it was a complete waste of creative energy. I made a few good, strong discoveries and shaped a couple of exciting and compelling characters (a couple. meaning, like, TWO, of the 50-or-so that came into being. yeesh). But, ultimately? I blanked on how to write with intent.

Two weeks ago, I went back to my *real* WiP, and here's what I thought:
"Crap. This one has to make sense."

Thanks, NaNoBrain.

And then, in true Julie-fashion, I gave myself a little too much space. I haven't written anything, and I mean ANYTHING (note the almost-three-week blogger absence), since November 28. In my defense, I *have* been doing other things. The play, for one! Happy sigh. My current literary dry spell is nothing compared to my recently assuaged, theatrical dry spell (two and a half years = longest I've been not-on-stage since I was 12, for reals). So, at least I have that.

And then I quit the internet for some days.

And then my mother-in-law showed me this:
found somewhere in here!
Books. Christmas lights. Tea lamp.

And, for some reason, things changed. Yes. I can still do this.
I can write and act at the same time. I can be BOTH.
Duh. I even mentioned writing in my actor's bio.*

Why am I always the last one to figure this sort of thing out?

*No, seriously. I did. And now EVERYONE who comes to the play will know. The secret's finally out... (eek.)


  1. Big ol CONGRATS on winning! You're a regular Charlie Sheen. I mean, you're a non-crazy Charlie Sheen. Or something like that ...
    Break a leg in the play! I miss my performing days too. Sigh...

  2. This entry made me very happy! I love you! You were created with wonderful gifts...gifts that mesh quite nicely...enjoy experiencing the things that God brings for you to act upon. Psalms 139:13-14 - For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
    I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful,I know that full well.

    Oh yeah!!!

  3. And the internets are happy to have you back. :-D

    I had a similar reaction to NaNoWriMo - "Yay, I succeeded, though it's really kind of a mess. I should go back to those short stories I was working on in October... Crap, I forgot how hard it is to write clear, submittable prose. I'll procrastinate for several days instead..."

    Fortunately I got back on the writing and editing wagon eventually, but now I wish I had also auditioned for a play, quit the internet, or built a tree out of books. Mostly that last one.

    Best of luck balancing all your creative endeavors - I'm sure you'll do splendidly!

  4. Good to see you back, and I'm glad you've been doing something else you love :-)

  5. Loved your thoughts and love your blog! I am also a writer who acts, or an actor who writes, but mostly a guy who watches more reality television than is healthy for anyone. And I'm also from Kentucky. We're practically the same person. I hear you on/in the struggle of a creative. Authenticity sucks and is wonderful all at the same time. Hang in there, sister!

  6. It's the truth. After you give your all for so long, like NaNoWriMo, then you need a break. But I'm glad your back :)


    And yes. Yes you absolutely can! And I think both your acting and writing will be better for the other. It's all stories, hey?

  8. Augh that is the best Christmas tree ever... I think I should set that up in my living room next year and see what my family says...

  9. Quitting the internet for a few days is very healthy. Good for you. I love that book tree! Wish I'd seen that before I put up my Charlie Brown one.

    Just stopping in to wish you a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.


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